Cheesy McCheesen 2.0: Just Like What You Wish It to Be ;)

Can't believe I'm writing this again for you... The last time i wrote for you was when we were going out for almost a week, remember? :)
Well, as you wish. Here goes....

Hi!
Do you realize that it's almost three months? Time flies fast ain't it? I miss you terribly though we always try to meet with each other almost every week. Even when I got home after I was with you, I still miss you like crazy. Maybe this is what they call: the mystery of being a couple. We still miss each other terribly even after spending time for hours and hours together.

Hugs & kisses for you, love ;)

Everything gets messy everytime you put your feelings into it.

But sometimes, it turns to be an awfully awesome mess, you can't even keep your hands off of it even though you tried so hard not to be involved in it.

I got this story from Here

I have known this boy for four years. He's the most incredible, loving person that I've ever met in my life. I love everything about him. We've had so many ups and downs that most of our friends believe that we're completely insane and are inseparable despite harsh words and the rash decisions we make. We broke each others hearts over and over and fell in and out of love with each other. We were together for about two and a half years. We were crazy in love with each other without a doubt. But the twist was, our love was through school. Our relationships were hidden from our families. I'm chinese, he's pakistani.. meaning we could never be together in reality. Everyday that I got to see him out of school, I cherished. He's my first love and I'm his. So what do you do with that, you move on to find your next love, right? No, everything's always going to be complicated in a girls life. Over the years I've learned to love his family even though they hate me. It's hard to believe that's possible considering how many times our relationship has been ruined because they disapprove of me so much. At one point his family hated him because he was with me. I felt terrible everyday but he wouldn't let me go. Of course over the years they came around because we are no longer together. Lately we've been acting like we're together, no PDA because he has a brother in the school. But through our minds and hearts, we're sweet and loving like a couple, and I'm really happy with that. I've fallen for him all over again. A few weeks ago he broke down to me. He didn't know what to do because he loves me and wants to be with me but he can't. I wanted so much to say just be with me.. He's getting an arranged marriage some day. It breaks my heart but I respect that his family traditions will continue. I just need a long time to accept it. Everything between us is over now. I miss him so much. I don't know how to let him go. I wish that they took the time to realize how much I genuinely love their son and arranged for us to get married, i wish.

JL

:'(

Am I?

Cheesy McCheesen

I can't stop thinking about you. As cheesy as it might sounds, it's true.

I miss how we fiddled with each other's hands, I miss how comfortable it is to be by your side and I miss how safe it is to lean my head to your shoulder. I miss you so friggin much, I could die.

I don't know what kind of magic you have there, but you definitely changed a lot of things. I've never been the type of person who believes in such things like love and relationships but you've changed my views on those stuffs. I wouldn't say that I'm starting to believe in those stupid stuffs but you definitely changed it, that's for sure.

Yeah, we've only been going out for almost a week. This maybe too fast but I don't care. Despite our big differences on our views about God, this is right.

I love you so freakin much, boy :)

Gantung Aku Sampai Kering

Look like a lush. Talk like a tease.
The way you like it.
In front of your house, alone on the street,
You ask me to come inside.
Asleep through all our classes,
You hang me out to dry.

If this is a test,
I’m losing my shit
Would it kill you to care
As much as I did?
If this is a test,
I’m wasting my breath
You’re a stranger I know well,
And not at all.

The Test - The Academy Is...

Alika Fakhira Tanjung, my lovely and adorable little niece :)

Matanya keliatan berkantong, ya? Tapi sebenernya dia nggak kayak gitu kok. Kayaknya pas gue ambil foto ini dia lagi ngantuk atau mungkin abis begadang. Iya, bener. Begadang beneran. Kecil-kecil badung keponakan gue ini. Bangunnya aja jam 11 siang. "Udah kayak pemain band aja!" kata nyokap gue. Nggak apa-apa deh bangun siang kayak pemain band, yang penting gedenya jadi berguna buat bangsa, negara dan keluarga. Amin.

Kakak gue selalu nuduh gue ngga mau main sama keponakan gue gara-gara kalo diajakin ke rumahnya, gue keseringan nolak. Gue mau aja kok main, cuman masalahnya gue sibuk dan gue bukan tipe orang yang tahan main lama-lama sama anak kecil. Apalagi kalo gue nya udah mulai kena penindasan dari dia (baca: dipukulin, digigit, diinjek, dan segala macamnya yang nyakitin), gue makin males. Maaf ya kak ;p

Walaupun badung, berisik, dan kadang-kadang annoying, gue tetep sayang kok. Dia objek foto terbaik dan anak kecil yang paling lucu. Dan cuman dia satu-satunya yang manggil gue "beebee"

Ilysm, kiddo ;)

Melankolis.

Benci banget gue sama kata itu. Kata itu terkesan lemah, ga berdaya, pokoknya segala macam hal yang buat lo jadi letoy kayak orang sakit. Dan cuman satu hal yang membuat kata itu bisa muncul di dunia. Perasaan sedih.

Perasaan sedih bisa disebabkan oleh berbagai hal tapi yang paling umum dialamin sama remaja kayak gue dan (mungkin) lo adalah gara-gara "rasa sayang ke lawan jenis." Please man, semua yang lo rasain sekarang itu bohong. Semu. Rasa sayang lo itu cuman bertahan sementara sampe akhirnya lo nemu orang yang pas. Mungkin sekarang lo merasa udah nemu yang pas, tapi seperti kata BBB alias Bukan Bintang Biasa, Johan: Jodoh di Tangan Tuhan. Jodoh lo sekarang belum tentu bisa tahan sampe lo mati nanti.

Pas lo nemu orang yang pas juga belum tentu "rasa sayang" lo ke dia juga bisa bertahan lama. Bisa aja maut atau hal lain misahin lo sama "orang yang lo sayang" itu. Inget, nothing lasts forever.

Maaf kalo gue terkesan jahat karena menghancurkan impian lo akan "soulmate" atau hal-hal yang berhubungan dengan "kasih sayang ke lawan jenis," tapi gue cuman mau buat lo semua sadar. What you feel now is not gonna stay as long as you'd expected. It's all just an illusion.

PS: I know that I'm a skeptics when it comes to love, but at least that's what makes me survive this life.